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Post by Arwen on Oct 29, 2003 21:21:06 GMT -5
I had not realized this had a website. Lofty. I like it. ;D
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Post by Mippin on Oct 30, 2003 16:38:20 GMT -5
whee, thank'ee arwen! Well, I haven't posted in a while so here's what's going on in the life of..me! Pippin sketch...still working on it, don't feel like doing anything to it today, though. Kazaa sucks officially, because everytime I download a travis song, I only get part of it...and frankly, I need my Travis CD!!! So, instead, I ended up downloading a bunch of Stone Roses and Coldplay songs...good gosh, don't these bands sound familiar? So anywho, I'm just sitting here, indulging in Stone Roses at the moment. Pretty spiffy, actually. I found some other people who like Smashing Pumpkins on neopets. Whoo! We got into a big conversation about Zwan...*blink* I haven't actually heard Zwan, but I hear it's dull and nothing compared to SP. Oh well. That's about it for today, it's been a musical day. and only Brit Rock, I might add...(well, except for the SP/Zwan conversation, that is) gotta love it! ;D
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Post by Arwen on Oct 30, 2003 20:23:38 GMT -5
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Post by Mippin on Oct 30, 2003 21:33:10 GMT -5
Yeah, me too..I like illegal CD's...heh..
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Post by Mippin on Oct 31, 2003 19:36:20 GMT -5
HAPPY PJ DAY EVERYONE! ;D Anywho, I've been dragged around all day, and it seems the same shall happen tomorrow...AHHH! *grumble, grumble* I have a killer headache and I nearly died from heat exhaustion. The only good thing was that I got a spiffy hat! It looks like Dom's hat. Heh...I wanted a plaid one but they didn't have plaid. But hey, Dom's hat is spiffy, Amarië should know that!
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Post by Amarië on Oct 31, 2003 20:54:43 GMT -5
Yup, *puts on Dom's spiffy hat* wait... wernt I tied to Dom?
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Post by Mippin on Oct 31, 2003 21:01:52 GMT -5
Yes, Amarië, you are. So technically, if you put it on, he could just take it back...
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Post by Mippin on Nov 1, 2003 0:46:44 GMT -5
I'm depressed. *sigh* I don't like leaving the house. I hate the sun, it's e-vile. I used to look forward to christmas, but now it seems that there's little to look to. Maybe it's all those Christmases where I ended up doing chores all day, when the house was barren, and everytime I looked outside people were enjoying themselves, and I saw christmas lights in windows. Maybe it's because I really want a white christmas. Maybe I just want to celebrate Christmas, like I used to. But I don't think I can now. My parents think that all I care about is the darned christmas tree! That's not true, I just want to enjoy the holiday. It feels like nothing will ever get better for me, I'm falling through the floor as it gives way under the weight of my depression and there's no end to the fall. Even the things I really wish I could do, I can't. What's new? I can't even live in the same place for too long. My head is pounding and I just can't seem to be rid of my feelings. It hurts to even sleep. People say they think I'm adjusting to this hell. Hah! I'm just acting so that I won't get punished more than I am now. I get punished for everything. Everything I do, Everything I say, everything I don't do, everything I don't say, everything I feel, and everything I don't feel. I get in trouble for not being able to talk because if I lift my voice I know I'm going to cry, and when I do end up crying, I get in trouble for that. I feel so encaged, like I can't move because if I take one step, I'm going to get pushed back, but at the same time, the walls are closing in on me. I never thought it would be this hard to be happy. Happiness seems like a fairy tale now, something that everyone wishes they had but never really do. Sometimes I wish I could just fall asleep and not wake up the next day, or any day for that matter.
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Post by Emiline on Nov 1, 2003 12:09:38 GMT -5
Mippin- can we chat sometime?? my AIM is yzma11. I added you to my list.
Until then here are some thoughts:
I don't know much about you or your situation. How old are you? When I was younger, 14,15,16, I felt depressed a lot. I felt like no one liked me, i had no friends, that everyone just pretended to like me because they felt sorry for me. I think I know where you are coming from and I really understand a lot of your feelings.
BTW, any suggestions to what i can use other than Kazaa??
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Post by Mippin on Nov 1, 2003 23:57:37 GMT -5
Ah, I'm feeling better now..I get depressed when I think back on the fact that I never stay in one place too long...but thank'ee for your concern!
I won't suggest any other places to download music, as 1. I don't know of any and 2. wouldn't want you to get a lawsuit...
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Post by Arwen on Nov 2, 2003 14:38:07 GMT -5
You're feeling better!!!! ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D Yeah, I'm sure that moving all the time would be depressing. I'm sorry Mippin! I don't really want a lawsuit either. I don't think their very fun.
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Post by Mippin on Nov 2, 2003 15:02:37 GMT -5
Thanks you guys for caring. I am much better now. Got my spiffy hat, some new avatars/buddy icons... things are a bit better now. I got done with my shop on neopets! (s/n katzeeinbrecher, if any of you neopians want to check it out) It's completely Smashing Pumpkins themed. Well, it's all about the song 'disarm' I actually wanted a Coldplay theme, but I decided against it when I found the wma file of the scientist was a lower quality than disarm. Sooo. That's how that turned the tables. That's about it for now...yup.
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Post by Mippin on Nov 2, 2003 15:09:19 GMT -5
I have the sudden urge to post a bunch of pictures here...but knowing me, they'd only scar all you guys. soo.. I decided against it. I may come back with some if I find anything worth actually talking about. heh. ^^;; I just needed to post that for some twisted reason. Must be the music playing in my head. ;D
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Post by Arafangwen on Nov 4, 2003 1:45:10 GMT -5
Ooooh! Pictures! Pictures! Post them! Post them! ;D I promise you that there's nothing you can do to make my mental situation any worse! Hmmm..... My music says to go have a midnight snack, even though it's only 11:42 pm right now... I'll wait a few minutes, just for unreasonable reasons. ;D I hope you get that x-mas tree thing worked out w/your parents. Namarie, Ara
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Post by Mippin on Nov 4, 2003 2:11:08 GMT -5
Yes, I have, thank'ee Ara! So glad you're on! Fwee! My music tells me to follow someone down the drain... o.o *snackle*...okay, pictures..hmmm...I..don't..know! Baah! Fine then, just because I can, I'm showing you all..MERRY! (I hope you don't mind, Amarië!) This is a giganitic file, so I won't bother posting anything more than the url! photopile.com/photos/Titaniumlike/family/56459.jpgThere ye go! And now, since I can't think, I'll stick with the whole 'merry' theme, and show you my avatar on Imladris and the downs...why? because it's pretty. No, actually, because it features someone sniffing a plushie. If you can't see the guy behind him too well, he has a funny expression, so I'll show you the actual pic.. Seeeee....? I dedicate the above two to Earwen, because..well if you don't know by now, go read her journal. Go, I say, go! This one..why? Well, hell, it's animated! Run for- erm, Sean, run!!! Be back with more soon...MWAHAHAHA! (okay, so those aren't scarring, but really, I could scar you, ask Amarië...)
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